Before I found my way to recovery, I couldn’t seem to trust the world to be what it should. I felt I had to control others and manage circumstances to keep disaster at bay. Reality, I believed, needed my help.

When I started to recover, I learned I had to strive to live “life on life’s terms.” I had to make peace with reality the way I found it. The hardest part was trusting other people, including the authority figures in my life, including my employer.

Today I will reflect on whether I’ve been actively cultivating distrust in the people I work with and for. It’s possible they have legitimately lost my trust. But it’s also possible that I’m unnecessarily anticipating being hurt and let down. I don’t have to trust my employer completely; I just have to trust my Higher Power. Expecting the best might have better results than anticipating the worst.