I often hid my thoughts, feelings, and difficulties from those around me, especially at work. I thought this was perfectly acceptable; I thought I was being easy to get along with. But in recovery I learned another name for this behavior: dishonesty.
Concept Four in the Twelve Concepts of Service reminds me that “participation is the key to harmony.” When I hide my true experience, I am at disharmony within myself, and it spills over into all my relationships.
Today I will pray for the removal of my defect of dishonesty and practice reasonable contrary action. This defect might take a while to budge. Today I commit to sticking with the process and acting on the guidance I receive.
If I’m afraid that honesty will endanger my job, I will set up a time with my sponsor or a program friend to examine whether this is a reasonable fear. If it is, I will consider the concrete steps I can take to change my situation.
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